May 23, 2013

marriage is good...

Let's just end this blogging drought right now. In the name of Jesus be done.

Life is exciting ya know. People getting married and having babies and graduating from things. We are doing none of that, but ya know, it's exciting! For other people! Although speaking of babies yesterday I got the most massive paper cut of existence and not long after decided NATURAL CHILDBIRTH IS OUT OF THE QUESTION. Because, because it is.

We're still pluggin away over here in California. My job remains a God send of downtime and little stress. Brad's job situation remains complicated and confusing. Hey yo! But don't worry, we are seasoned wait-er's and pass the time making healthy dinners, taking a no dessert stand only to give in an hour later and watching baseball games.

The other night I came home from work and Brad had started on dinner. The smell of barbecue chicken made its way from the grill. I threw off my flats and started cutting the veggies into little slices. We chatted about our day and the traffic. I told Brad about the epic paper cut while he flipped the chicken. There were little hugs and hands on backs while we each attended to our portion of dinner. He plated, I grabbed drinks and forks, hit the kitchen light and followed him to the living room.

I thought about our home, our dinners together, our little cooking conversations.

"This is what I always wanted marriage to be", I said.

Even when things get confusing, there is so much to be thankful for.

April 11, 2013

life's basic reminders...

Life is confusing and fun and beautiful and weird. Taking it day by day. I just thought that maybe other people might need some refreshment in truth, like I do. But like in lay men's terms because, ya know.

So, on this Thursday remember that:

God knows whats up.
Drink plenty of water.
Your choices matter.
This too shall pass.
Life is beautiful.
Everyone has their crap.
We all are forgiven.
You are known and loved.
God can handle your honesty.
Life should be done with people.
You were created awesome.
It always works out somehow.
You are body, mind and soul.
You are beautiful.
Just be you, there's no one like it.
You don't have to be perfect.
God knows whats up.
You are not alone.
He's got you.

also, a baby hamster and puppy pug because, baby hamster and puppy pug!


April 5, 2013

a slow down friday morning...

It's a rainy Friday morning. Sipping coffee, glancing at the news. Last night we had friends over for burgers and wine. Kelly and I talked about God's plans and how we laugh at the possibilities of it all. We both agreed that what will actually happen one day will be much greater than what we dream of. What we dream of is being Midwest neighbors who have fat babies and bake cookies while it snows. So. We'll see what God does with those plans.

This morning I'm craving those green misty hills they always show on Vikings, long tunic like tops, high patterned socks over leggings and warm cookies out of the oven.

Have the loveliest weekend friends.

March 25, 2013

randoms and good news...


this place. YES.

I blinked and it's Monday. But I passed!! Yes yes I passed. The state of California did her darn best to trick and me BUT I AM SMARTER THAN THE STATE OF CALIFORNIA! This is basically what it comes down to.

The whole experience was nuts. Security cameras and finger printing and they take your picture which you have to look at through the whole test. Luckily I nailed that part. The whole room is a panic attack waiting to happen. People are cracking knuckles and deep sighing and fidgeting in their chair because THE STATE IS TRYING TO KILL THEM. Finally after 4 hours and 200 questions you wait...and wait...and at the bottom of the screen in the tiniest font possible is the word passed. And you're like, wait what? I passed? Because you're expecting loud noises and streamers and at least an 8 point font. But then it starts to sink in that you have passed and you throw up one fist like Bender at the end of The Breakfast Club, Afterwards I called Brad and we both screamed on the phone for a good 5 minutes and I was shaking from the adrenaline. When I walked through the door he had my favorite JT song blasting and we jumped up and down like crazies.

So now!

I have to take one more test. WHAT? I know seriously. But then! Then it will be over. California is so demandy.

I am pretty pleased over here:)

The weekend was a nice one filled with brains, celebrations, seeing such wonderful souls at church and trader joes. And Vikings! I love me some vikings. Props to my peeps hashtag I'm Danish.

Some links:

Loving these DIY cute lamps made by my friend Sarah...
I just LOVED watching this little video of Jen and her daughter Rowan...
My online friend Christina is following her dream of freelance writing...
My friend Rebecca makes really cute bags for a great cause...

Monday camere and gimme a kiss!

March 19, 2013

a monday do over...



i wanted to do yesterday over the minute i woke up. there was just something off about the day. i couldn't catch my breath and my mind wouldn't stop racing. there was a constant wave of emails and phone calls that would not let up.

i just needed a minute ya know?

music on the drive home started bringing me back to normal. i've been loving me some cheesy christian power ballads lately. natalie grant anyone? i came home to brad making dinner. that man can crock pot ribs like no other. i sat down to study and found little notes just for me. what a guy.

today is already ten times better. i can breathe. i've conquered the mountain of work on my desk and enjoyed my cup of coffee. snaps fingers.

tuesday is totally the monday do over.

March 18, 2013

a weekend away...

just got back from our annual baseball spring training trip. it was extra fun this year...

after waking up from our 6-7am nap in the car.

 a little denny's breakfast in blythe. my dad offered someone 20 bucks to take their hot dog shirt right off their back.

 look what we found hidden in the car manual. look at the hat!

 the desert and baseball go great together.

 they golfed and i drove.

 waiting for autographs and sweating like animals.

we ate so many chips.

not shown are the many beers and hot dogs eaten, the glorious 3 hours we laid by the pool, the 5 times i went down the water slide, the pink skirt i wore everyday, the 8 times my family made fun of me for asking "what's that noise?", the time my husband ordered a peach margarita and my family went waaaaaat? and that time i located and stalked mike trout's girlfriend because i follow her on twitter and knew she was at the game and then spent copious amounts of time trying to locate other player's wives by their large diamonds and expensive sunglasses.

oh  monday be kind.

lots of studying this week for the TDT. (the damn test). look for my post on monday morning to learn if i've passed or not. it'll be like an exciting gender reveal or something!

March 13, 2013

about 32...

I hate the term 'heavy hearted' but ya, that's what's happening. We knew Brad's job was a temporary one and we're waiting to hear what will happen. I've found myself the past few days reminding myself to just keep going. Put your head down, pray and keep going. To not give in to the fear and worry that has been tailing me like Brea PD. The Brea police are so annoying, always being there when I want to text.

But wanna know what's not annoying? Brad following me around the house the morning of my 32nd birthday. I tried to shake him off by asking where my present was and he declared himself my birthday presence. Clever that one. My birthday was a refreshing day full of my favorite things. No work, a lazy morning, a long hike, deep and silly conversations, pizza, baseball, LAYING IN THE SUN FOR TWO HOURS ALL BY MYSELF, a homemade dinner, a yellow cake with dark chocolate frosting, a three hour bachelor season finale and a bottle of Moscato. I am happy to start year 32.

The night before my birthday I couldn't sleep because my husband was snoring I was contemplating the year that was to come. I have a sober understanding of 32. There will be both great and difficult and I'm at peace with that. Why fight it ya know? Hopefully it will be the year that I become a licensed marriage and family therapist and say good riddance to this nagging wish to finish what I've started. Ambition is also annoying. I was chatting with a friend of the same profession about how tiring this job is. How tired I already am and I'm not even fully in it yet. I hope I can carve out a place for me that feels important and fulfilling. Part time might be the key. And also monthly massages.





So here's to whatever is to come 32. I will greet you with a lot more grace than before. A lot less expectation for perfection or entitlement. A lot more patience and go with the flow. A life with God that is held loose while expecting much. With itty bitty selfies.